I've reached the breaking point....

No sleep

No alone time

No breaks

4 kids in tow are taking their toll....

and the crying... and fighting...endless messes....  the feedings... the mounting diapers...

I did my best today not to cry - but it was a hard day.


The silver lining is that little lily flower - aleia (whatever we are calling her) is smiling a lot more
After her naps (brief naps) and after she eats, she has like 10 to 20 minutes where she looks at you and tries to talk and smile.
It's super cute :)
I actually love it :)
AND when we were at the dr's today I weighed her and she's almost 9 lbs - so that's awesome!!!  and it's funny... she's 2 months old and weighs what i did when I was born.  Crazy!  Her thighs are really getting chubby so I can't wait for it to be all over her body!!


I can't wait till we are in Arizona.  I can't wait to be around family and cousins and just people to be around.  It's going to be awesome - I can't wait.  (Best of all Brynn is going to come visit and I can't wait to be around her and her funny husband and her beautiful kids!!!!  YAY!!!)

(another good things is that hopefully our Mesa home will close it's short sale very very soon!!  and hopefully that means we will not foreclose... that would also be awesome)

oh- the other awesome thing is that yesterday...we had to go do paperwork and dr's appointments and running all over the island...   scott came over, literally, at the very moment that I was throwing all the children in the tahoe... and he needed something out of the house, I just said shut the door when you're done.....
I came home to a spotless apartment!  He cleaned the whole thing and it looked amazing and it was a huge huge relief!!!  It would have taken me several days to do all that he did for me.  THANK YOU SCOTT!!!  love you!!!