Just since some how someone is miscommunicating on behalf of our family...

We have never said that we need time to recover or need space - NEVER, not once in the past two days has that ever crossed my lips... and I haven't heard Chris say that - accept I think for right now only parents are allowed to visit the baby at Kapiolani Woman's and Childrens - NICU- but that's all...  I've never said "give me space I'm recovering."    - that's poop

If you know me you know that I NEED PEOPLE!!  I love people!  I want visitors!  any random kind of visitor imaginable. :)  Seriously I love it.

There is nothing worse than being lonely in a hospital bed w/o people, or your baby, or your husband...  So I'd rather be in bed, in horrible pain, chatting with a random visitor than just alone.


When we had Kai here almost two years ago and we had no one visit - it was kinda devastating.  So I really appreciate my friends that have come and seen me or that have come to my house and been with my children - I love you girls for stopping by!!  It has made a potentially difficult situation (recovery w/o baby) so much more do-able.

Thank you thank you thank you!!!


Now an update on the baby...  who is two days old and who has only been held for one hour by her dad in her life....      They confirmed today that she does have premature lungs and respiratory distress syndrome (RDS)... they redid the Xray of her lungs and tried to take her off C-PAP and she got worse, so now they are saying that it will be 1 to 2 weeks that she will be in the NICU.  

Please can you see that we do need help?  Why would we not ask for help?  It's ridiculous!

My sweet little baby still has not received a priesthood blessing because we haven't had the help...  (not that I'm ungrateful for the help we have had, cause I am ever so grateful for every ounce of assistance we have gotten), but I guess with mom and baby in different hospitals and 3 kids at home...  it takes some generous people, with time and/or means to help.  Right now is probably the worst week ever too...  finals and graduation and about 1/2 the people we know well moving or leaving or sold their cars already...  i know it's a hard time to help.  I really really know.

But please...   hear from us, from me now, that our baby does need some help and prayers.  She needs a blessing.  My husband does need some help watching kids and letting him visit the baby (and me - although it's not totally necessary).  He cannot take our own kids to the NICU, although he can bring them here, although here I cannot bend or lift, etc... so basically, he cannot help our daughter or me, with out the generous help of others.

We would love visitors!  I would!  here or at home... and when I get home, we would still love help, and would need help with our children so that we could go visit our daughter in the NICU.

My mind is blown that anyone would say for us that we don't need help - cause that's just the most ridiculous thing I've ever heard.  It's unfathomable (it's with out fathom  --  yep that's Megamind:)

We humbly need help, and I have a box of thank you cards I'm intending on filling out... I already started some...  and I'm sorry that I'm a crappy person and haven't been someone that was able to help out everyone else prior to now... no one owes me anything, and I'm not indebted to anyone...  I'm just at the mercy or God, and our community and our ward and friends and neighbors.  And it sucks to ask for help (sometimes), but we're asking.

And we're also so grateful.  So very very grateful.