So this last week has been fun - or not.   ( I really hate how you cannot convey sarcasm through type... there should be a designated font that means = I AM BEING THICKLY SARCASTIC RIGHT NOW)
Anyway...  no, it has been fun because my brother-in-law, Mike and his fiancee, Rosie, are here... but it has not been fun because I'm sure the way I wanted to spend this week... and especially Valentine's day was rolling around with feverish children and their barf and diarrhea.  =  AWESOME :)
It started last week when I was watching, what else, but Grey's Anatomy on Hulu... and then the bed started shaking.  I rolled over and Chris, who I thought was asleep (he said he felt like he was coming down with the flu) was just shaking and convulsing...   I swear I thought he was seizing.  But don't worry - he wasn't having a seizure, he was just shaking uncontrollably because of his 106.6 fever.  Then once I got him to the ER, it was a 108 fever.

Seriously?!?!?!

Who ever heard of a fever that high?

Not me -


Anyway...  he spent the night there, got very good attention from some Nurses we know (and volunteers - thanks Josh for the sponge bath ;) and then he came home the next morning.  They could not find the reason for the fever - and Dr. Powers said that in 30+ years in medicine, he's never seen a fever that high.  I am so grateful Chris didn't go unconscious, or have a seizure.  He has said he feels weird though - which I'm sure he does!  But they did a million tests - and everything came back fine.  He was a little tachy (from fever) but his blood pressure was fine, blood tests were fine, just a little elevated white count and that was it..  so weird!   but I'm glad that he was able to come home :)

Staying up all night - or two nights in a row... I forget will really take a toll on a pregnant woman.  So I was exhausted and grumpy and not a very gracious hostess to the family staying here (but really when am I ever?)

Anyway...  now I have Keira and Kai barfing, and I'm just waiting for Jayden to give it up, but so far she's been fine, but with a few complaints of a tummy ache.

I actually don't mind the sick kids.  I love the cuddles and loves and love to be needed.  It's even best when they are sick enough that they are not really whining, but tired and sweet.

So actually it was a good Valentine's day  :)  ( minus the barf - and poo)

Kai's fever got pretty high last night...  Chris showed me 105.6 on the thermometer - and we did everything we could to get it down so we didn't have to spend another night in the ER -  as much as I love Kahuku Medical Center - and I do (there is no sarcasm there) I do love getting a few hours sleep in my own bed...  even if it is squished up next to a block wall, Jayden, Kai and then Chris.

So really, it was a good Valentine's day :)
Jayden had a good day at school (and I had some amazing help getting her there and back since I had sick kids and no car - thank you so much Danelle and Hannah!)
And then a neighbor brought us some gorgeous cookies - and it made me think, "maybe everyone doesn't hate me...?  :)"      AND - some of the kids in the building asked Jayden to play!!!   seriously - those few things just brightened up my day so so much ...

also cute things I want to remember -
Kai crawled in my bed all my himself and took a nap.  He's doing it again right now :)  it's so cute !!  :)
Chris went to Mililani all day to do "drywall" - which was going to be awesome, but somehow he managed to find a psychopath employer - i guy who wants Chris to build and run a whole company for 12 bucks an hour...   I don't think so...    if he's going to kill himself to build a company, it's going to be HIS own company...  someday anyway :)
Keira or Jayden asked last night, when is the baby coming out?  And we tell them in a while - and then they cry and whine - and then they asked...  "Where is the baby going to sleep?"   -  WHAT A BRILLIANT Question!!   I have no idea!!  I guess we will figure it out in the next two months...  a family of 6 in a two bedroom apartment.  My family did it for YEARS...  family of 8 in a three bedroom rental house....  so I know it can be done.  For a while i slept in the small dining area, next to the garage...  maybe the new baby can sleep in the bathroom tub.

And just a last note...  if you want to know why I don't talk about this pregnancy, or this baby...  that may get posted on here some day...  but the struggle I have inside about it is probably one of the most self-dividing internal conflicts I've ever felt.  I've been angry for months...  and will probably continue to be angry for a few more months.  So where there is extreme anger, and hurt, and sadness, and disappointment... there leaves very little room for joy, and excitement, and anticipation.  But it you want to know anything...     I am 30 weeks, I can almost hear myself gaining a surplus of pregnancy weight, the baby doesn't look like my other babies in their ultrasound pictures, and unless it grows a penis, I've been told it's a girl, but I am waiting until i pops out to worry about that.

More random...

I am trying to finish my Senior Research so I can get my diploma
Chris is looking for work or side jobs or anything.. while he tries to please my endless demands
Keira is so so bored at home - since we could not get her into pre-school all year and we've been waiting
Jayden has more and more, as the school year has gone on, fought us every morning to get her to school - I'm thinking she will be going to kindergarden again next year, which is when she was supposed to really (if in any other state then Hawaii) and that will be fine with me cause then the girls will be one year apart in school like they should be, since they are 13 months apart...
Kai has no idea that a baby is coming...  he is the most spoiled baby we've had - we lay down with him for naps and bedtimes (well only recently, just since he went to AZ w/ Chris)   and I keep pulling him in bed with us at night - cause that's easier than listening to him scream and I'm too tired to do anything else...
We put in a request to move to a three bedroom unit back in 2009 - so maybe this spring we will move and have more room while Chris finishes school in the next year and a half.
We are loosing our house in Mesa, which is not awesome, but also kinda a relief.
I got released from my calling in Primary, which i love, but apparently suck at... and it was probably done in the worst possible way ever...  so two weeks ago I went to church (wasn't released yet), tried to be there and help, and came home bawling my guts out feeling like crap...   so last sunday I didn't go...   I sinned and didn't go, but I didn't end up crying all day, feeling like crap.  I felt fine :) ...   so we'll see what happens next week...  can I get myself to go do what is right when it just is painful, or should I do what's wrong and feel fine?  I'm sure I already know the answer to that question.

Anyway...  I should get some pictures up... but first I have to take some pictures...  Maybe tonight before mike and rosie go..  the kids love love love their family.  It's the only thing that makes me want to go back to AZ.